Trip to Cape Breton

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in a while but things have been quite 'full.'

I'm currently in Cape Breton, Nova Scotia visiting my parents. After this whole ordeal with'zmy mother and my previous blog, I decided it was time to to over for a visit. I talked with my husband about it and it said that it was alright with him (he is just wonderful.) Now, how am I going to get there...by myself.

You see, since I've had Panic Disorder, flying on an airplane (or rather, travelling in general) has been quite a task indeed. The planning, the packing, the driving to the airport, the waiting at the airport, the flying, the arrival: it's a big deal.

I never used to be this way, you know. I loved trekking off to far away destinations with my little carry on bag with nothing but my wallet, passport, camera and ipod. Taking off and landing were the best part! Now, if there is the slightest bit of turbulance I feel like I'm going to 'zookie' myself (that's the trifecta of crapping, peeing and vomitting - nice, huh?)

Luckily for me, my grandmother decided that it was a perfect time to head out east as well. I am so happy she did. We are having such a good time! Everything has been just pure bliss. I didn't even feel the slightest bit panicked on the airplane and to top it all off, I took my first direct flight to Sydney on WestJet. It was seriously the best flight ever (if you are considering travelling, go with WestJet since the seats are huge, the drinks are free and the smiles are big.)

So far, Mom has taken Gram and I to an outlet mall where I helped them pick out some sassy and 'in style' fashions. (It's really interesting to see the clothing taste in your elders.) My Gram and Mom are just so cute together shopping. They always make me smile. And today we even went to the Casino. I lost $10, but I did play my first ever hand at Blackjack (and what do you know, I got 21 in my one and only hand.)

This visit has also allowed me time to see my favourite Aunt on my Dad's side of the family (and only Aunt on his side) Irma. Auntie Irma is just a peach! She tells the most crude jokes, bakes the most delicious sweets and has the kindest heart. Seriously, she would give a kidney to a stranger, that's how fantastic a human being she is. I love telling her jokes and just seeing her laugh; it really makes my day.

I'm coming home on Wednesday night and am very much looking forward to seeing Greg and Jordy. I think this month has just generally been hard for Greg and I because of my PD and I think me going on this trip helped cool off the steam. (Let's just say that I copped out of going to a concert that Greg was dying to see.) I still feel incredibly guilty about it, but I know I will make it up to him in the future.

I just wanted to mention one last thing. Greg and I are having our second year wedding anniversary on June 7th and I cannot for the life of me figure out what to do. Can anyone suggest something?

Sarah xoxo